“I’m just so stressed out! I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life!”
This was said to me a couple of months ago by a high school friend. I merely gaped at her. “You’re sixteen,” I thought, “you don’t have to know it all now.”
There’s this idea in our culture that we have to have our entire lives planned out at the age of eighteen. We need to know where we are going to college, what we will study, and what we will do after graduating. Then we go to college, change our minds over and over again, graduate, and our careers have nothing to do with what we study.
With holidays coming up, I’m bracing myself for inevitable: “So, you’re a senior in college… what are you going to do next?”
My answer: I don’t know.
I’m twenty-two years old and I do not know what I’m going to do with my life. And, frankly, I am okay with that.
When I graduate, I fully expect to move home and work until I have the next steps figured out. A lot of people are ashamed of moving back in with their parents. I am okay with that.
Ideally, I want to go into ministry. I want to spend my life doing something worthwhile, building the Kingdom, and serving people. I’m interested in working within the missions sphere. I’m not planning on being a missionary, but if that is something that happens, I’m open to the possibility.
I don’t know what steps I’m going to take along the road. I don’t know where I’ll be a year from now.
But that’s okay. I’m young. I’m single. I can go out into the world and do whatever I want. (Assuming I get paid enough to pay off my student loans, that is.)
The thing is that people change. I came to college to study what I’m passionate about, and I have had a blast. But five years from now, my passions will be different. Ten years from now, they’ll change even more.
I’m not worried about the future. Maybe I should be, but I’m not. I know vaguely where I want to go and, for now, that is more than enough. The idea that I need to plan all the details of my life right now is ridiculous. Who knows what will happen? What’s the point of figuring it all out when it will probably change?
Life is about adventure. I want to soak in as much as I can. So I’m going to muddle through the now and embrace whatever comes next.