About a month ago, I wrote a post where I posed the question: What brings you life?
I’ve been thinking about the future a lot lately. I mean, with only a few months left of college, it’s to be expected. People keep asking me what’s next. I keep telling them I don’t know. Just now, though, I realized that I DO know.
I want to do something that brings me life. I don’t want a job to pay the bills. I want my work to be my passion. I want to feel a sense of fulfillment at the end of a week. I want to do something I love so much that I can’t imagine doing anything else.
I got lucky with college. During my final years of high school, I knew exactly what I wanted to major in. People ask me why I chose to be an English major and I answer them, “I’ve been an English major my entire life. I just didn’t know that is what it’s called until I got to college.” I didn’t chose English for the career track. I became an English major because it’s the only major I imagined myself pursuing. And, although there have been rough patches (I’m looking at you, Virginia Woolf class), my studies have spurred my passions and brought incredible life. But it’s not what I want to do forever.
I now stand at the brink of another crossroads. Where do I go after graduation? What should I do? The answer is clear: I need to find what brings me the most life and I need to do that every day until I die.
At this point, I have a good sense of what that is.
Above all else, my time here in Morris has taught me that, although English is something I love, it’s not something I want to do with my life. When I look back what stands out the most is spiritual growth and involvement in ministry. Over the past four years, God turned a quiet girl with her identity in a box into a confident, passionate leader. Being involved in IVCF, prayer ministry, Bible studies, and (of course) working at camp has done more for my career than any professor in any classroom. He’s given me a taste for service that leaves me longing for more. All I want to do is serve God with my life. I can’t imagine doing anything else.
I’ve realized lately that I feel the most fulfillment when I’m pouring into people. It’s my favorite thing. There’s nothing that brings me more joy than praying for others or meeting one-on-one and giving encouragement. I love taking the lessons I’ve learned and the things God has spoken to me and passing them on. It’s such an amazing experience, helping others draw closer to Him.
That, friends, is what I want to do every day for the rest of my life.
Now I just have to find someone willing to pay me to do it.